Thinking

Maelstrom. It conjurs a mental image of chaotic swirls of color in never ceasing motion. a maelstrom of thought. I know that I'm not doing what I should be doing right now. I know that I need to bring my thoughts into focus. Have I become mentally stagnant? Is it possible that this maelstrom is swirling constantly and going nowhere? Have I lost my sharpness, my insight, my words? Have I ever had anything to say or share?

Who am I now? Who I was yesterday doesn't matter anymore. Who am I today? Who will I be tomorrow? Is there any hope that I will be sharper, brighter, stronger tomorrow?

I practice. I write. I run my six miles. I teach. I work. I make breakfast, lunch, dinner. I do laundry and clean house. And the day is over. What have I done to become sharper, brighter, stronger? What am I doing?